It was shiny morning,the sunlight broke through my window,it was my freshman year in Senior High School,my clock alarmed me,then I woke up and waiting for my turn to take a bath,I was so impassioned to get into new teen life.
Time was on 6.15 am,I was ready to school,my daddy brought me to it.Arriving there,I got so nervous,there were so many the freshman students,I didn’t know them all,but there were few I knew,mostly,they were my old friends in junior.
The Headmaster made a speech to say welcome to us,then divided us into eight classes,I was in class X-3,I sat with a girl who just moved from another town,we introduced ourselves and telling some experiences each other,we were led by three senior,they were Mario,Fattah,and Joddiana,they were so funny and kind-hearted.So many activities we did that day,starting with introducing ourselves,being fooled by the seniors,and etc.
The Orientation of new students was held for 7days,we learnt more about the school and at the 3th day,we had to get less 30 signatures from the orientation leader.I was given up,cause I had just got 3 signatures.I thought in myself “OMG,What am I supossed to do?If I don’t get those signs,I will be mocked in front of people”.Suddenly,I saw the crowd in the corner of stairs,I got close and I saw my friend asked for the sign from the senior boy who named “L”, then I did the same like my friends had done already,I asked for his sign but he declined me,he said “I don’t give you any signs till you complete my basic information,okay junior!” and I answered honestly “but,senior I had just 3 signs,please help me to complete my report” he said just no way.
Since that happened,I really hate him,and fed up with his face,I swore I wouldn’t see his disgusting face.the Freshman Lessons began on 5 day later,I was so stressed with them all,I didn’t fall in love with anyone,but when my school held Art performance in Dome building,I saw him,he used an eyeglasses,I got surprised,he was pretty cute boy ever,he wore red t-shirt and grey jacket with black skinny jean’s.it was a time when I got a crush on him.
In the school,I always met him,and I tried to hide this feeling,and I once added him as my friend in facebook,but he didn’t accept me,so I deciced to cancel my request,but I didn’t know something about my fb,it could open one’s fb account,even I hadn’t been their friend (it wa a miracle), so I often looked up his status,and his comments with his friends.
Everyday in the school,when school-break time,my friends and I went to cafeteria,and I met him there,of course with his annoying friends. There was a moment when I could be so close with him,I felt like I stopped breathing,and my heart was hardly beating,that moment happened when I was in Mainhall to get some informations about Borneo’s International Kite Festival in lamaru Beach,but tomorrow I was pretty disappointed as he couldn’t attend that festival.
And now I’m preparing for the examination next month,I saw him this afternoon,I know that I shouldn’t love him, I read his status yesterday,he wrote “it’s so hard to love a girl who has already got a boy”,and it proved that he liked another girl,I don’t know what should I do to forget him,I know it is a mistake,a mistake that hurt me.
Sometimes,I wish I could sing a song someday and make him impressed with me,even he never be mine,I just wanna he knows me(not my feelings on him),just me as myself no need to pretend someone else,before he is graduated school and I don’t know,can we met again after this life in school?
